Redundant Current

The concept for this album was described and refined

After the experience of making the album

The album approximates the processes of: 

  1. experiencing
  2. memory building, and 
  3. memory reconsolidating

The first three songs 

(Elephant, Pivot and Deliberation) 

Each have one organic/acoustic instrument/performance 

Running through them (guitar, recorder, kalimba respectively)

Which could represent the 

Unpredictable quality 

Of an experience as it is lived

These organic/experiential sounds 

Weave through generated/synthesized sound layers 

That represent the way experience is contorted/mediated 

At the moment of experience 

By existing perceptions 

Or patterns of perceiving 

These generated/synthesized layers 

And the organic/acoustic sounds 

That run through them 

Are further modulated by effects

Representing an observer position… 

The consciousness that is aware of 

Experience being contorted/mediated by perception 

In many cases, there is modulation on top of modulation

Representing reflecting on reflecting on reflecting on… 

The unpredictable experience

Being mediated by perception

And modulated and remodulated by observation and reflection

Each song is named after an experience 

I was having around the time of its composition 

Between June 27 and July 1, 2020

In the middle of the COVID-19 pandemic

And as I was conceptually and socially

Navigating issues related to the “Trans/TERF War”:


Having a conversation with someone 

Who asked me what I would do

As a counsellor

With someone who reported perceiving themselves 

And insisting everyone else acknowledge them 

As an elephant… 

An analogy for this person

For working with someone 

Who might believe they are a sex/gender 

Different from their “biological sex” 

(Which I put in quotations to indicate 

Some perceive this to be a fact

Others a construction)… 

My answer was that I would respect

But not affirm/agree with this perception (of being an elephant)

(As I don’t think it is the job of a counsellor

Or really anyone

To try to either undermine or affirm

Someone else’s perception of reality)

I said, depending on the circumstances

I might share that I thought they might run up against 

At least some people who may not want to 

Acknowledge them as an elephant

And explore if they thought they could use any help 

Navigating that probable experience 

(One they may have already encountered

Especially if they have made it to a counsellor’s office

Though it’s possible they got to a counsellor’s office 

About something other than “elephantism” 

So I’d want to carefully check 

Any assumptions I might have

Maybe they want to talk about 

Their relationship with chocolate chip cookies)


As executive director

I’d been navigating near-continual

COVID-19 adjustments

Across five different programs

Their staff and participants

Trying to find ways to keep

Our mostly already-marginalized

Intended program beneficiaries

Connected in a time of physical distancing…

Not feeling forgotten

Almost everything

That I would have normally been doing

To keep our organization running

Was not getting done

Creating reports

Evaluating our financial position

Making broad adjustments to practices

To continually improve how we meet our vision and mission

Just trying to keep everything

From shutting completely down

And then slowly reopening things

In a new way

So as to hopefully not be at the centre of 

A career and organization-ending

Major COVID-19 outbreak

As the avalanche of adjustments

Started to slow

I started to dig out from under it

Realizing that some pretty big pivots

Needed to be immediately enacted


I agreed to join a private Facebook messenger group

To engage in some dialogue

(Without as much risk of being dog piled

By ferocious social media gangs)

About some of the finer points

Of the concerns that “feminists” have

About the effects that the “trans ideology”

Was having on the “women’s movement”:

That research on women’s health

Was being dangerously polluted

And “women’s sports” was becoming

Incredibly unfair

Due to “biological males” (people with “large gametes”)

Who insisted on being considered “women”

That “safe spaces” for women

Who were easily triggered

By “male qualities”

(Due to past traumatic experiences with males)

Were being invaded by “men in skirts”

That “young women”

Were being “seduced” into “gender confusion”

And “irreparable damage” 

Caused by “gender-confirming” medical procedures

At alarmingly skyrocketing rates

That “sexual preference”

Was being conceptually disconnected

From “biological sex”

Instead focusing on “self-identified gender”

So “lesbian women” were being labelled “transphobic”

If they wouldn’t consider a trans “woman” with a penis

As a potential sexual partner

I’d never personally experienced or observed

Any of these things happening

Though I was quickly buried

In articles and YouTube videos and books

That went some distance to substantiating

These claims

(But, for me, there were always flies in the ointment)

I had experienced and observed

Countless complications

That people I knew who were trans


And which I could only imagine

Getting worse if these “feminist” concerns

Got too much daylight

The second three songs

(Elephant-Silence Reconsolidation, Pivot-Retarded Reconsolidation, Deliberation-Indirect Reconsolidation)

While I was producing the “Wedge” album earlier in 2020, it occurred to me that the songs were mostly improvisational, so I thought of calling the album “Wedge Improvisations” and then I was considering doing a series of remixes of the songs, which I would call “Wedge Recalibrations.” It was an interesting idea, but seemed like a lot of work.

My next album, the EP “Quips,” initially had 9 sets of quotes/quips that I was going to set to music, and the idea that these songs would function like “remixes” of songs that didn’t exist. In other words, the small quotes that were in the remixes were taken from hypothetical songs that included the larger texts from which the “quips” were extracted. As I created the first 3 songs, it became clear that much of the “meaning” of the other “quips” I had initially planned to set to music were already contained, in some measure, in those three songs. So I stopped.

“Redundant Current” picks up on some of the ideas that developed and/or were left behind on “Wedge” and “Quips”.  From “Wedge,” the album is composed of “original” songs with improvised qualities, which are then remixed (or “reconsolidated”) with (from “Quips”) only small portions of each song repeated to form a new composition that, while being comprised of much less unique content, still forms an equally complex composition.

The last two songs

(Intermix, Intermix Reconsolidation)

Then, also from “Quips,” those three reconsolidated songs (based on the three “original” songs) are combined together to form one song that is redolent of elements from all that preceded it. Then, taking it one step further, that combined song is reconsolidated with even less unique material, but which still recalls all that preceded it in both content and complexity.

The idea with “Redundant Current” is that, upon multiple listenings, everything begins to resemble everything else… which could be said to emulate or represent the experience of memory:

  • While every experience we have is unique and unpredictable… it gets filtered, mediated and modulated through our observation, perception and reflection into something that, rather than destroying who we are with its uniqueness, supports who we are through how it is rendered familiar.
  • Once you’ve listened through the whole album, and then start again at the beginning with the “original” songs… is the additional information and variability contained in these original songs consequential any longer?
  • Even though much of the original songs was “lost” in the reconsolidations… does what was “lost” anymore matter?
  • When we do relisten, is it to gain new perspective or to support our existing identity?
  • Do new experiences change who we are, or do we just ingest them in a way such as to render them consistent with our existing perception of being?
  • And, if we are changed, are we so changed that we no longer have access to any way to know that we are?